A ghost of a smile

I like you very much, just as you are. 
--This is what Darcy told BJ in BJ's dairies. 

This moves me, and reminds me that maybe a long time ago, someone said similar things to me. I was moved at that time. Meanwhile, I was quite fat, not confident, worried about future and lonely. On the contrary, I loved shining objects at that time, sth that are appealing, unreachable and mysterious; sth that could make me feeling shining as well. Maybe that's why I chose to leave. I'm not sure. Anyway, the current me are not attracted to those shining ones for the same reason as before. Whether you're shining or not, it's none of my business. Besides, if there's sth really shines, it must be a decent, gentle and brave heart. This is appealing to me now, although usually it's not visible. 

No logic again... Whatever, I just want to say that "I like you very much, just as you are" deserves large amounts of appreciation. I regret for my illiberality at that time.

I like this saying.

How fast can I grow up to see what is love
wait for my dear prince to show up
Some said loving with heart could teach you a lot 
please tell me is it true or not

P.S. This is the lyric of the song About Love, sang by GiGi
        

The dorm is like a steaming boiler and we are bread in it. 
Keep sweating...Losing water...Discharging junk in body...
Even the mat is so warm...and hard.
It makes me feel uncomfortable.

This is the hottest season in BJ.
I really miss the wonderful time last year at home. 
Hanging out with you guys. Swimming in the crowded pool. Eating the noodles we like best. Playing "watching TV" and " Mona Lisa and palm tree". 
I miss you. All of you.

But this is life. We have to obey its rules.

My main task last week is acompanying three Iranian guys and shopping with them.
One of them is a newly elected Iranian Congressman. 
Compared with the other two, he is really gentle and polite.
After I told him my Chinese name, he said," You must be very lucky. Because you're Miss Chance."
(The pronunciation "Chance" is really similar to my Chinese name.)
Miss Chance, quite a good title, right? I like it a lot.

Because of political reasons, all of Mc donald's have been drawn back from Iran.
Pity for Handsome Bin and me, we have to eat Mc Donald's with them for 3 times!!!
Why don't they like KFC? I prefer KFC much more~~

Finally, they left on Thursday with Beijing Duck in their stomach and five huge pieces of luggage.
Full of presents. Full of happiness.
Mr Tarhepous, maybe I'll remember him for quite a long time. 
Thank you for the "Miss Chance" you give me.
Wish I'm really a lucky girl in the future.

Departure means impossibility.
This is known to everybody.
Of course, I know this, too.

I just checked my mail box and unfortunately found the thank you letter from Mars.
That means I don't even have the chance to enter the capacity test in the next round.
And this indicates that my CV, in other words, my experiences and background is not competitive enough.

And before this, I got the thank you letter from Dows, China Bank, and Hewitt to announce me I was out of the internship.

It's really a little abjective to receive all these letters. But the job hunting road is still long and tough.
There's no time for complaining or hesitating. Just learn from these failures, and figure out what to do in the coming days to come up with other people and even exceed them. That's exactly the right thing to do.

Execution. I have to remind myself over and over again.
For a better job, I have no excuse to be lazy.

Ok, the title is what I want to say to those couples in American TV dramas. 
to Chuck & Blair 
to Meredith & Derek 
to Lucas & Peyton 

When I watching GA for the second time, Christina is so shining in my eyes. 
Gio is the right guy for Betty. Henry? Omg. 
Madonna's "miles away" is really popular recently. 
Lucas, could you pls stop being so weird? 
Nathan & Haley &  Jamie, perfect family. 
George and Izzie, they're definitely not a couple... 
And pls, don't let anything bad happens to derek & mere. 
It's too hard for them to be together again. 
Lost will be the last one. Don't be cruel. Don't.

The contest is a lion fight.
So chin up, put your shoulders back, walk proud, strut a little.
Don't lick your wounds. Celebrate them. 
The scars you bear are the signs of a competitor.
You were in a lion fight. 
Just because you didn't win doesn't mean you don't know how to roar.

--From Chief to Izzie in GA


Therefore, We should bear in mind that : Fight harder. Don't be afraid of failure. Learn how to roar. 

These words explain why I love GA so much.

Stupid as I am, I twisted my left ankle at the beginning of this week...
And then I got to know that I was refused by Hewitt from bbs...

Maybe the lord of  bad luck paid a little more attention on me recently.
Maye It's time to let the explosion of my RPs~
Wish lord of good luck visit me asap, and it would be better if she will never leave.

Maybe what I can do is just keep waiting...

I am definitely crazy. 

Anyway, work harder in the coming days to alleviate my guilty conscience.

Work harder, play harder, right?