A ghost of a smile

I know that I haven't update here for more than a week, but in fact, I open this blog everyday.  My brain is quite disordered recently.  I cannot calm down.  I cannot figure out what I should think about and what I shouldn't.  I cannot clear my head to learn and finish my homework.  I just kept doing lots of things that I supposed to do.

Sometimes I don't want to say even a word.  Sometimes I feel that I'm going crazy.  Sometimes I feel desperate.  I just want my tempo controlled by myself. 

Oh my gosh! 

I know all of the above is nonsense.  That's why I haven't update for such a long time either.  Calm down.  Calm down.  Calm down.  Although I've already told myself this for so many times, that's still what I should do.  Step by step.  Finish them one by one.  Forget the people and things I don't really care.  Improve the efficiency.  Get things done.  Don't affected by others.  Sisi, fighting!

P.S.  Beijing is getting cold and the horrible huge wind comes back, which drives me even crazier... However, it's comforting to look into the pair of big eyes and listen to the sweet words~ Maybe, I miss you too.